Getaway

Last weekend I escaped Glasgow and took a trip to Inveraray. It was a little rainy but I had a lovely little day out and discovered a cute cafe called brambles that served good coffee. 

The week that followed has been horrible and I swayed about posting about this but I think I need to for myself also to show others that including an eating disorder in your life is not worth the pain or hassle. I think anorexia had me under the illusion I was doing miles better... I was doing a little better but not as much as I should be. I relapsed for two days and my body decided to give in and sent me packing to hospital again :( 

My haemoglobin dropped to dangerously low because of malnutrition and I was prodded with needles and experienced lot of discomfort not to mention a dreadful nights sleep. It was basically a hellish horrible experience that I want to avoid at all costs. This means challenging my negative thoughts and overcoming them long before I wind up in a situation like that again. Continuing the way I have been is just going to lead to life time of scenarios like the above or worse. Its no way of life and I need to push on forward to pull myself out of this. I am just grateful I had two of my wonderful friends there to support me and words cannot describe how thankful I am to have such amazing people in my life.

Its been a while since I have blogged so I will include a mixed mash of photographs of the past few weeks...

Vanilla yogurt cereal mess

Cous Cous with veggies and salad

Amusing grape (random I know)

Mothers Autumn Garden

So its been a stressful few weeks and there can be no slips with my food intake or tacking on extra milage to runs because I cannot afford to become poorly and let this illness continue to dominate my life.  

I don't know if I am being too open about things but I feel this blog holds me accountable for enforcing changes which can only be a good thing right?!

Anyway I hope you are all wrapped up warm in cosy scarfs, hats & gloves as a cold spell has decided to pop by and say hello.

Love

Changes

So a while back I discovered this cereal for 88p (!!!) in Asdas... now I'm not ashamed to admit I love a bargain so got myself a little box. Cocoa crunch is delish btw :) Anyway on my grocery trip last week to my sadness I could not find this whole earth box of crunchy clusters. Four Asdas later, Tescos, Morrisons, UK supermarket you name it and they don't have it. 

I thought that my usual saviour would have some cereal goodness

Nope.

Gave up and decided to head to the gym but not before a last ditch attempt at grassroots 

Huzzah!

After all that I bet its not even as good as I remember! Also the £2.99 price tag dissuaded me somewhat :O When I do crack it open it will be rationed to a crumb a time obviously. 

On to my five things I would like to see change....

My mindset I would delve further into this but lets face it we all know I'm completely barmy in more ways than one ;) 

Poor treatment towards animals. I find it utterly heartbreaking that someone would abuse or hurt an animal and don't and never will understand why someone would inflict pain on an innocent animal. 

Something that I wholeheartedly agree with and resonated with me 'I would like to see the attitude of the general public towards mental illness change' Jessica. The stigma surrounding mental health and peoples reactions and downright ignorance irritate me no end. Its the invisible illness and misunderstood by many because you can't necessarily see the symptom(s). If people were to be a little more understanding and open in talking about mental health I reckon people suffering would be able to cope better and not feel as isolated and alone as the illness already makes them feel. Its something that can effect anyone and you wouldn't treat someone with cancer with total disrespect so why treat someone with a mental health problem like its something that they can be help. It may frustrate those that are not been affected by issues out with their control but if there was a magic cure and one was to just 'get on with things' I'm sure someone suffering would take that route in a heart beat. 

Body/ weight obsession! Particularly in the glossy magazines as its not healthy for anyone to be bombarded with unrealistic images on a daily basis. 

Finally I would like to see a cure for Eating disorders so that they could disappear all together.

Right its late and I would like to make Spin on time for once! Toodle pip (Did I honestly just type that?!)

Love

B

Today...

was not my day!

To start... I slept in so had to quickly pack my things to head to the gym. I was going through the motions of putting things into my locker and bent down to collect my bag and on my way back up successfully clunked my head of the locker door. Ouchies! I have a incline the cute swim coach seen so being the smooth chick I am I pretended I didn't just knock myself stupid. Man oh man did it hurt though!

Fast forward two minutes and the gym toilets were full so I skipped through to the health suite. Now don't let the word 'suite' deceive you... my cat would hesitate about using the loo's in that place! Anyway after I unlock the door the handle practically falls off in my hand. I was trapped! Trapped in the health suite toilets! I considered squiggling under the door but ew the floor! so I yelped for a little while until what sounded like a small gathering outside.  One woman reads aloud the 'Out of Order' sign on the door perhaps I smacked my head harder than I thought and was temporarily blinded on my way in. I heard an announcement over the tannoy requesting help. There was talk of having to remove the door handle when the door popped open. Some random man had managed to rescue me so he received a thank you hug and the I scampered away in embarrassment to the gym.

Of course.... things have to come in threes and that late start in the morning made going swimming a slight problem as during my crazed rush I had forgotten my swimming costume. Don't worry I don't do nude swimming so I went home and returned for a good swim this evening.

However I am delighted that tresor cereal has made its way to the UK under the fitting name 'Krave'. Yum! I think you should all go have a bowl of this deelish breakfast munch immediately.

Hope you lovelies had a better day than me!

Much love

B

Clear Roads

Bonjour lovelies

The snow has finally melted and its not as cold! Pheweee! However this weekend we are due another cold snap... sadface.

This week I have been super busy and have barely had chance to sit down in fact I don't think I have really sat down except for sleep times. Although catching Zzz'z is a task & a half primarily because of my young child cat. Honestly Darcy has some form of ADD and likes to howl and scratch my door for a good two hours every single night. I love my cat to bits but he does love attention so its hard to ignore his sing song meow and his beautiful blue eyes... non?

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This week it was the relaunch of dance class releases which is always good! Also enjoyed a number of Spin classes minus yesterdays one as the strap on my pedal broke and it came round at spinning speed into my  poor leg. I was at the front of the class and I am aware the mirror reflection of this painful comical moment was on show for all to see. Calf & pride in one fellow swoop. Ouchies!

I am planning to do the woman's 10k in May but its far away so I decided to sign up for the 5k fun run in March. I would like some company so if anyone is floating around on this day feel free to join me! I have had a really good running week running 6 miles on Monday & Tuesday and took it easy with a 3 mile run and stretch session today. I overtrained in November and put my ankle out so I am trying to be more careful this year.

I have found a substitute to my all time favourite cereal which I first encountered in Italy during my travels and just fell in ♥ with the stuff. Much to my disappointment we don't get it here in the UK and even kind emails to Kellogs never amounted to anything! I am getting to the point... no really I am! In our local German supermarket I found Nougat pillows & by god yes they are as good as they sound. The word pillow probably helps as it makes me feel slightly dreamy. Just me?! Thought as much! Anyway I do suggest you try a bowl of these little delights!

                                            

Well I am feeling the effects of my busy week catching up and still have some emails & study I should really set about.

Hope you all are having an enjoyable week :)

B