Time out

First Green Monster

2 cups of Spinach

1.5 cup of alpro soy light

1 Banana

Ice

Thats right guys I finally got round to making a green monster and I was disappointed. Sorry guys! Blog world raves about these little scary's but it just didn't float my boat. I know there are lots of variations so perhaps thats where mine went wrong but lets face it the colour is wrong and I believe colour affects my taste buds. So yes! A pink monster would probably make me happier... suggestions please?!

I took the rest of yesterday off and by god it dragged by! After catching up on sleep with an epic nap I woke up and was tempted to just go a run anyway but the pain was still bothering me and mentally it would of been a stupid idea. Instead I cleaned! I finally got round to pulling out my cooker and fridge to hoover and clean round the back, I re organised my cupboards, cleaned the bathroom, tidied my lounge, yeah you get the picture right?

So I have a tidy flat and today I am going for a work out which I am looking forward to. Admittedly I did let my blip effect my eating quite substantially so I'll try to not push it hard and ease myself back in. I strongly advise if you are you feeling discouraged or no longer enjoying physical activity then take a big step back. I may have taken a day and in the grand scheme of things that is nothing but it gave me some headspace to look at what I was doing and reach out to you lovelies. Thank you so much for all your support it means a lot and reading your emails made me feel miles better. 

The awful feeling about myself is still hanging around me but I'm trying to move past it and no doubt I will hear something in the next day or so that upsets me (hell most things make me cry these days). The difference is I have voiced how I'm feeling and don't feel as alone as I did when I posted yesterday.

Ps. Sport physio appointment booked for 4 pm :) 

Changes

So a while back I discovered this cereal for 88p (!!!) in Asdas... now I'm not ashamed to admit I love a bargain so got myself a little box. Cocoa crunch is delish btw :) Anyway on my grocery trip last week to my sadness I could not find this whole earth box of crunchy clusters. Four Asdas later, Tescos, Morrisons, UK supermarket you name it and they don't have it. 

I thought that my usual saviour would have some cereal goodness

Nope.

Gave up and decided to head to the gym but not before a last ditch attempt at grassroots 

Huzzah!

After all that I bet its not even as good as I remember! Also the £2.99 price tag dissuaded me somewhat :O When I do crack it open it will be rationed to a crumb a time obviously. 

On to my five things I would like to see change....

My mindset I would delve further into this but lets face it we all know I'm completely barmy in more ways than one ;) 

Poor treatment towards animals. I find it utterly heartbreaking that someone would abuse or hurt an animal and don't and never will understand why someone would inflict pain on an innocent animal. 

Something that I wholeheartedly agree with and resonated with me 'I would like to see the attitude of the general public towards mental illness change' Jessica. The stigma surrounding mental health and peoples reactions and downright ignorance irritate me no end. Its the invisible illness and misunderstood by many because you can't necessarily see the symptom(s). If people were to be a little more understanding and open in talking about mental health I reckon people suffering would be able to cope better and not feel as isolated and alone as the illness already makes them feel. Its something that can effect anyone and you wouldn't treat someone with cancer with total disrespect so why treat someone with a mental health problem like its something that they can be help. It may frustrate those that are not been affected by issues out with their control but if there was a magic cure and one was to just 'get on with things' I'm sure someone suffering would take that route in a heart beat. 

Body/ weight obsession! Particularly in the glossy magazines as its not healthy for anyone to be bombarded with unrealistic images on a daily basis. 

Finally I would like to see a cure for Eating disorders so that they could disappear all together.

Right its late and I would like to make Spin on time for once! Toodle pip (Did I honestly just type that?!)

Love

B

My Story

Thank you so much to Barb for letting my share my story on her blog ♥ :) If you have a moment feel free to have a little read.

Love

B

Eating Disorder Awareness Week

Eating disorders effect so many people and I would urge everyone to get involved in eating disorder awareness week as there is way too much stigma surrounding this illness and many people are suffering in silence.

If you or someone you know is suffering from this horrible illness please speak to someone and know that there is life after an eating disorder.

BEAT 

National Eating Disorders 

B

Blender fun

Yesterday I got a new toy for the kitchen! I have traded my old hand blender for a proper real type blender which cost less than £10 ;) I love a bargain I do! I am very much looking forward to making strawberry and nana smoothies this weekend.  Mmm!

Oh yeah early happy valentines! clinton card cash in

Neigh! I don't have a secret lover... the card is from my little sister :)

Forget Valentines I have a whole host of other things to keep me occupied! Namely the swimming pool followed closely by the stationary bike which has had to replace the number one in my life... the treadmill. Sad times! I have messed up my ankle from over training and using that damned machine. I am looking to get back outside running next week and will stick to softer grounds so I do not aggravate the injury that has thankfully almost fully recovered. Its been a tough time sticking to low impact exercise and I have complete runners envy. Any runner I see while out & about I feel so annoyed and disheartened that I am not able. Running really helps clear my head and make me feel like I've had a proper workout. Such is life as they say!

Exercise aside I am also set to see my little sister Chloe for cinema times and a night out of dancing which I am thoroughly looking forward to. I hope you all have a lovely weekend and have some Valentines love from me ♥

B

Busy Bumble Bee

I have been on the go constantly and I am actually pretty tired however I can't seem to sit still and my mind never seems to rest.

Exercise is meant to be a good thing right? It can improve your health, fitness and make you feel really good. However exercising too much?! What? There is no such thing!  Some would have you believe this but the fact is some people (myself included) suffer from over exercising.  A lot of people I've encountered seem to have a hard time forcing themself to go to the gym but for me I am the polar opposite. I struggle to leave the place and as daft as it sounds I feel exceptionally guilty and upset if I don't finish what I set out to do.

I have tried to distract myself and make other plans but I end up ditching them in favour or the gym/ classes or swimming. Its pretty ridiculous really but nothing seems to pick me up as much as exercise and the thought of sitting down for a long period of time equals low mood and feeling like a complete failure.

The good news is I am trying to get help but right now I am finding cutting back on exercise to be a huge struggle. So I am trying to make sure I fuel myself as I am doing more than ever and it would be a school girl error to not keep the engine running in order to sustain! I do enjoy cooking but my recipe head seems to lack a great deal so if anyone has any good suggestions especially in the shape of smooth nutritious soups and tasty sauces that go well with veggies and chicken?!  I would really appreciate your input!

I tried the above snack this week! Marks & Spencer Giant Couscous & Wheatberries With Roasted Butternut Squash Salad...yum right? Afraid not people!! It sounds delish but it was actually pretty poor so yeah its not just M&S food it's total misleading sad let down food.

I have opted to have a lazy Sunday (for me anyway) and slept in until half 9 so I feel more rested and ready for a new week!

Love

B