New Gadget

iPhone 4 baby!

My 3G went on the blink after 2 years of good use and it was time for a new contract so I went with my honey apple and got an iPhone 4. Its pretty super but thats to be expected. I am really pleased with the camera as I usually lug my Canon round which is purrty darn heavy so it tends to stay in the house (tsk naughty blogger). So expect more pictureful updates and apologies in advance as you will probs get kitty overload as Darcy loves to pose for photos.

In other news I've had two weeks of physio and got a roll of kenesio tape (pink obviously) which has helped a LOT. I don't want to become too dependent on the tape though and the joke floating round my gym is that I'll turn up like a mummy wrapped up in the stuff. I managed a good 10 miler this week and in my sweaty mess realised I had my running leggings on BACK TO FRONT... total fail! I expect nothing more from me though as I can be quite the dizzy head.

I've had numerous other appointments and got the dreaded blood test results which confirmed I'm anemic again. I'll need to get my Popeye on and down some spinach asap! I had an incline that I was lacking in iron as I was feeling really exhausted and had the whole paler than usual look. It probably contributed to my complete break down last week too so again I probably have to look at my nutrition and make some big improvements. It probably goes without saying that this is going to be a struggle as I feel like I eat too much and don't need any more. However its blatant that this is a typical ED thought and I need to try and get the negativity under control.

A mention to the wonderful Laura for some of the great inspirational posts of late :) you have brightened my blogroll many a times this week!

The Verdict

I have tendonitis which can you believe derived from doing too much?! Yeah doesn't take a brain surgeon to work that out.

I managed to get in a nice long run yesterday which was fairly pain free and swimming was completely pain free but the walk to my physio appointment hmm... boy! did that hurt! Climbing the stairs kinda went like so... ow owwa ow eee. Paaainful! Anyway I seen Rachel from the sports therapy team and after a bit of analysis she said she would need to get 'the big guy' in for a second opinion. Turns out the big guy wasn't so big and he quizzed me on my running basically sounded me out from the word go. He asked what help I was getting and said he wasn't going to advise me to stop running as he understood that would be too hard. We agreed to cut down the epic long runs to one a week, no body attack, more stretching, as little impact exercise as possible and not to make up for mileage by swimming more. He also suggested I took on some supplement drinks and was really understanding. It was nice to meet a health professional that didn't fob me off as some crazed starving girl and understood that I do enjoy running and its not purely to burn calories. I was given an ultrasound on both knees and he wants me to go back next Friday for a follow up appointment.

I can't tell you how relieved I am! I really thought it was shin splints or worse... a stress fracture so as much as tendonitis is painful its not as bad as it could of been. Its another warning light though and came at the right time as admittedly the exercise addiction was spiraling out of control again. It is bad enough as it is but there was that nagging part of me that thought 'just a little more' but I know by now thats what ED's thrive on. Anything I do will never be enough to satisfy those negative thoughts and I just need to remember to try my best to challenge that horrible feeling that right now hangs around me 24/7. I will just live in hope that this does get easier and that this knee problem is the end of ailments and not just the start.

Time out

First Green Monster

2 cups of Spinach

1.5 cup of alpro soy light

1 Banana

Ice

Thats right guys I finally got round to making a green monster and I was disappointed. Sorry guys! Blog world raves about these little scary's but it just didn't float my boat. I know there are lots of variations so perhaps thats where mine went wrong but lets face it the colour is wrong and I believe colour affects my taste buds. So yes! A pink monster would probably make me happier... suggestions please?!

I took the rest of yesterday off and by god it dragged by! After catching up on sleep with an epic nap I woke up and was tempted to just go a run anyway but the pain was still bothering me and mentally it would of been a stupid idea. Instead I cleaned! I finally got round to pulling out my cooker and fridge to hoover and clean round the back, I re organised my cupboards, cleaned the bathroom, tidied my lounge, yeah you get the picture right?

So I have a tidy flat and today I am going for a work out which I am looking forward to. Admittedly I did let my blip effect my eating quite substantially so I'll try to not push it hard and ease myself back in. I strongly advise if you are you feeling discouraged or no longer enjoying physical activity then take a big step back. I may have taken a day and in the grand scheme of things that is nothing but it gave me some headspace to look at what I was doing and reach out to you lovelies. Thank you so much for all your support it means a lot and reading your emails made me feel miles better. 

The awful feeling about myself is still hanging around me but I'm trying to move past it and no doubt I will hear something in the next day or so that upsets me (hell most things make me cry these days). The difference is I have voiced how I'm feeling and don't feel as alone as I did when I posted yesterday.

Ps. Sport physio appointment booked for 4 pm :)