No let up

Sunny Glasgow town

I swear you would think I make up half the stuff on this blog as it just seems to be doom followed by gloom followed by doom. I'll get the bad stuff out the way first so we can end this post on a good note...

My beautiful grandmother aged 88 died last Monday evening due to heart failure. It was completely unexpected as despite her ailments she was really mobile and had a more active social life than myself. We have been blessed in our family that we have never lost a close member which has made this bereavement even harder to deal with.

I felt in shock about the death and proceeded to continue as normally as one could but I felt really unwell. I put it down to the fact I've never lost a loved one and that I would feel okay again by the weekend. Well that didn't happen! I got progressively worse when my temperature sky rocketed, I felt completely disorientated and was unable to keep anything including water in my system. On Friday I woke up with tracking up my leg and an incredible painful foot so an emergency appointment and half an hour later I was diagnosed with celluitus and sent packing with 12 antibiotics per day. I was told it could of turned into blood poisoning and if I had left it any longer I would of been hooked up to an IV for antibiotics. However this still remains a possibility because I am not healing as fast as I should be so keep everything crossed my body bounces back within the next 48 hours.

Brighter things! The girl well or I should say lady with the red hair is my younger sister Chloe! Graduating in Film & Media studies with a huge 2:1 :) Our proud parents and I went to her graduation last week which was lovely and the sun was shining all day for her ♥

Why what on earth is in here you ask?

 One ball of amazingness

Oatmeal cookie

Chocolate nana muffin

All made lovingly by my wonderful gym buddy bestie Sarah ♥

I'll be swimming in the pool and will catch her sneaking a cutesy tuppaware box under my soap bag. The rest of the swim I wonder what magical creation Sarah has cooked up and look forward to having a peak before I've even hit the showers. She really is a sweetheart :)

My other goodie great news is............. drumroll

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I passed my fitness Anatomy and Physiology level 2 theory course with 86% mark

I had kept it quiet that I had started the course and was due to sit my exam because I was feel all superstitious and was worried I was going to fail but I didn't!!!! I passed with probably my best mark for an exam (I'm more an essay girl) ever :D

So its good news bad news week and I've tried my best to steer away from being a Debbie Downer and I hope you can all hang round during this difficult time. I am still reading all your blogs and appreciate every comment and great support from you lovelies.

Recap

Zippity do da

Woah! Its been a while again so time for a little recap yes?

Hole 

Perhaps one of the best gigs I have been to! I have been a Hole fan Courtney Love obsessive since I was about thirteen so to finally get to see her in the flesh 10 years on was amaze! She played for over two hours and Eva and I didn't want the night to end... so we stayed & we met her kind of... (I touched her coat).

 

Blip

I mentioned a little while ago about the possibility of a short inpatient admission... which sadly happened on May 4th. Things had spiraled out of control with regard to my eating disorder and I was becoming physically very unwell. However I didn't last very long on the EDU but being in hospital again gave me the shake up that was very much needed. However this weekend has been really bad and I am struggling at the moment. I don't want to delve into too much right now partly because I think anorexia has had too much space in my life for way too long. I am trying my best to stay on track and been attending regular appointments. Its a slow process and frustrating for everyone around which I feel incredibly guilty about as it seems I take two steps forward followed by four leaps back. Right now I feel at quite a loss and I am battling negative thoughts constantly.

University 

Well! I have completed my final exam which was stressful and exhausting but I went, I wrote, I tried and now... I hope! Hope for a pass mark so I can finally graduate and get my degree! I'm an impatient little madam so this waiting game is not chocolate biscuits.  

Finally

Check my waldorf salad I created!

In thee bowl... celery, beetroot, red onion, tomato, red grapes, green grapes, apple, dried pineapple, sultanas and walnuts. 

Pretty and yummy!

This was rather brief and sketchy but Darcy is looking for cuddles and is threatening to walk all over the keyboard. Now University is finished I hope to start updating on a more regular basis :)

B