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Two week blog break! Did you miss me? I kept meaning to get on here but I've been a busy bee and updating fell off the agenda. I did get round to changing the blog a little and adding a few extra pages though! I also have a new blogroll so if you would like to be added just leave a little comment and I'd be more than happy to pop you on the list.

Things have been mediocre. Nothing amazing has been happening and nothing devastating just pretty much the same old! Muddling along. I was really motivated and doing well with reducing my exercise but this week I've fallen off the wagon. I just never feel like what I am doing is enough which is ridiculous and completely irrational but I just have to keep reminding myself that I can't afford to do crazy amounts of physical activity when my health is in jeopardy. 

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I made a positive step and escaped Glasgow last weekend! Usually I jump ship to my mothers house but I went with my sister to Dundee for a friends 21st Birthday party. It was a fun evening and I met lots of lovely ladies from Dundee Destroyers the local roller Derby Team. The trip to Dundee was a sleepy one and I managed to snooze most of the journey which was very much needed! Before I left Glasgow I got stopped by the police. My girls pink bike got me in to big troubs! I finally plucked up the courage to go on the main road and was going along Dumbarton road in quite the daze. Skipped a red light and was alerted by a police man from the other side of the road. I got scared, peddled fast and spent the entire cycle home paying close attention to traffic signals and behaving in a very good cyclist manner. A lesson learned my friends!

Right! its been brief and I don't have a whole lot of interesting stuff to say and I must go make myself a cup of tea! I can't leave without saying Welcome back to the beautiful lovely Laura :) She is a wonderful person and I am so proud of her. ♥

A moment

... or a few

This is a toughie because there has been many and I have sworn I will turn a corner and 'make changes' and all intentions are there but I never follow through.

Recently a scary a moment shook me up and made me realise I need to make changes. The bug incident a few weeks ago followed by a funny turn in the gym on Tuesday. I felt a little funny I say a little but I had really bad chest pain and thought its just a stitch and kept running. I was finishing up with a rowing session when a good friend basically told me I had gone a chalk white and it was time I stopped working out and took an energy drink. I examined the label of the zero electrolyte drink like a crazed maniac and realised how stupid I must have looked. This little person about to drop down from sheer exhaustion worrying over a few calories!

Wednesday I went to the salad bar in Waitrose and heart-ached over what salad to get... I swayed for a while, left the store, had a think then finally asked for a party snack bowl for a miniature salad. The whole time I was thinking 'this is ridiculous' I had done an enormous amount of exercise and I was getting upset over salads! Its not like it was a chocolate fondue fountain!

Today. The clincher! I went for an ECG and it came back abnormal, doctors were called, blood tests were carried out and three people had to agree it was okay to let me go home.

This illness really does chip away at you and I do know some of the reasons I won't let go but I reckon we all have to do things we don't like but its for the best otherwise well...

I have acquired a collection of moments and I just hope these are all the warning push me in the right direction. I feel terrible for letting people down and bringing down my bloggy but hey! life isn't always smelling of roses.

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