Catch up

Summer was here and I sat out in the sun for hours and got completely and utterly nothing. I'm so pale I reflect the sun. Seriously.

I went to visit my mother in her new home in the westend and we took a walk in the park and she was keen to show me this cafe.... 

Its next to Mother India and hosts a range of dishes to take home. My mum got Tikka Masala and said it was delish! 

A few weeks back the merchant city festival kicked off down my neck of the woods so I enjoyed a stroll through the markets and street acts. 

A personal best on the rower!

Lovely end to swim to find another smiley face box filled with a scrumptious...

 cookie! 

  Days out in Glasgow and evening walks after yoga practice...

I love my weekly yoga class at my gym. I feel it has helped me so much with injury prevention and taking that one hour to just relax a bit has made me feel much better and gives me the best nights kip ever! If you haven't tried yoga and like me were hesitant to give it a go please don't be as it really is wonderful. In saying that I went to a terrible class at another gym and found the teacher really pushy and mean which isn't what yoga is about at all. Small confession... when she turned away I made a swift exit because she was so scary. I never ever leave classes as I think its rude but this class was so bad I made an exception and sprinted for the door. Eaks!

Another trip down South to visit my Dad and for my sisters beautiful wedding (full update next time)

Well I don't want to photo overload you guys so I will continue this catch up tomorrow and I also have a little bit of news to share... 

Love ♥

Wagamamamama

So I finally sampled the tastes of wagamama with mother dearest :) This is one of the first times I've ever really dined out in Glasgow since moving here (5 years ago). I never go to restaurants because of the anxiety and fear but I conquered it and mother and I managed to bag a quiet table in the corner which made me feel a lot better. The menu has lots of different styles of dishes ranging from noodles to soup. Obviously I ordered a raw salad because I love me some lettuce leafs. I also challeneged myself and ordered a rice dish with tofu which is something I would never ussually give a whirl. I'm glad I did because the tofu was dreamy but I can't say I liked the rest of the dish because I'm not a huge fan of rice. I probably subconsciously ordered something I wasn't hugely keen on because my ED did get the better when it came to ordering. However going out in itself was a big step so hopefully next time I can be a bit braver.

Mother

Mums side dish 

My raw salad

Miso Soup

Tofu dish

Mums Meal

Spending time with mum was just what we both needed and it was a lovely eve. We chatted about future plans and decided we need to spend more time together as its something that has come somewhat neglected these past few months. After our meal we headed to the Princess square for coffee and photo taking.

While we were chatting the exercise situation came up and the fact I'm doing too much. To be honest I knew this but have been wearing the blinkers for a while just thinking that its 'not that bad'. It is though and my new years resolution about spending less gym time has fallen by the wayside. I don't like to discuss it too much here because a) I don't want to trigger others and b) I thought if I ignore it then perhaps its not a problem at all. The latter is a total fool proof way of becoming an idiot though because I am suffering the consquences of the amount of physical activity I've been doing. Exhaustion being the main one and the fact I came very close to burn out today. I was welling up at the thought of running and thats so unlike me! I wanted to run but didn't if that makes sense? I'm also very sore, achey, cold and pretty run down. Like right now I could do with sleeping for a week or two but y'know thats not an option. However I would like to go to sleep a little earlier than I have been of late but when I go to bed I instantly waken up. So frustrating! Luckily I'm heading off to London with my sister next week which will be great as I get to see the whole family and usually when I go to my Dads I tend to relax rather than chase.

This weeks plan


Ease up on myself a little so I'm brighter for going away
Study
Pop to the library
Meet friends for coffee
Yoga
Azure ray on Friday

Something that inspires you

hello

Thats my 50p purchase from Marks... yuh huh that's a cookbook (!) lets hope it inspires me anyway eh? My bargain purchases aside I have a few things that 'inspire' me but mainly those somethings are people. 

First up my family (Mum, Dad and sister Chloe) as despite putting them all through the mill these past few years they have never given up on me and encourage me every step of the way. It is frustrating to be around someone suffering from an eating disorder and they have motivated me when I have been downright difficult. Individually they have all been through a lot and despite all the many hurdles thrown in each of their paths they have come through it fighting strong and I admire them all so incredibly much. They inspire me in so many ways and for that I will always be grateful. 

Inspiration comes in form of another person I know named Leanne (fitness instructor, teacher and super fast runner). She works at my gym, a bundle of energy, lovely, caring, wonderful person that has endured and overcame so much. She too has battled anorexia and fought back from the brink, she fought the illness and has suffered the consequences but she rediscovered life and best of all discovered it without the use of this debilitating condition. There is no doubt in my mind that it is the hardest thing to ever do but the fact I have met someone that is recovered makes that dim light on the horizon shine that bit brighter. I will take this opportunity to thank Leeanne for being my inspiration and also for the amount of support she provides me. 

I could go on about the amazing people I am lucky to know but I think I don't want to bang the sentimental drum too hard ;) tell me what/who inspires you? 

Back tomorrow with 5 songs to take to a desert island!

Love 

B 

Happy Birthday

Mum :)

Love you!