National Eating Disorder Awareness Week
This is something I am very passionate about and if you want to help and support the cause please visit beats webpage to donate or if you are struggling with any eating disorder or know of someone with an ED the page has a lot of support and advice to offer.
This week I want to try to raise awareness and for people to speak up about Eating Disorder and the effects of living with one. If you want to share you story please email me as I have a few posts relating to this matter all week and need your help to dispel the eating disorder myths and reveal the truth about ED's.
butterflyshapes@gmail.com
Thanks so much for all of your comments recently ~ I've been meaning to reply for ages but I wasn't sure how to respond, simply because I don't know if it's my place to say certain things or not.
ReplyDeleteI can't tell from your blog alone, and it's been playing on my mind for ages, as I don't know whether to relay huge congratulations for your recent athletic achievements or to express concern. As I said, I don't know in detail, but your exercise habits seem quite close to my own, and perhaps getting worse as time has progressed? Forgive me if this is completely out of line, but you ran the Edinburgh 10K at a very low weight and now you've progressed to 10 miles while admitting that exercise has become pretty compulsive. It reminds me of how I was about eighteen months ago, only I was eating an awful lot and from your photos it doesn't seem that you necessarily are doing that.
I know it seems horribly hypocritical but please be careful: I wouldn't wish the cycle I'm in at the moment on anyone, and although you're younger than me at your age I didn't have any problems. It's only now that I'm starting to experience the constant pain that's derived from overexercising for so long, and now it seems too late to break that cycle.
Feel free to ignore me as you are clearly an excellent athlete with those amazing times and tbere's probably an element of jealousy on my part over your size and looks, but I just hope you are taking care of yourself, because you're too wonderful and special to fall prey to the 'life' I find myself in now.
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@~Jessica~
ReplyDeleteThank you for having the courage to speak up and challenge me. I don't think that was your intention but it has made me realise why everyone I know has been particularly 'off' with me of late. Nobody really congratulated me for running and do you know what I was annoyed. Annoyed because I feel very much like its the only thing I'm actually good at.
I completely understand where you are coming from and it isn't a way of life but I feel so stuck. I live to exercise these days and its been like this for 2 years now that I'm frightened thats the way I'm destined to live. Its like... I don't know any other way yknow? Eugh I'm probably not making much sense!
I'm surprised someone actually called me out on my exercise/ eating as nobody does and I just go around thinking its not that bad. Everyone at my gym which seems to be the only people I am in contact with just accept that I'm an exercise loon and if I try to reduce or god forbid take a day away from my usual 'life' people jump on me asking where I've been or why am I slacking off.
People I haven't seen for a while always say 'oh you look so WELL' and inside I'm just completely broken.
Right I'm starting to go on and should probably blog about it or write it down but I'm terrified of being honest about where I'm at.
Thank you for being open and blogging about your struggles. I wish I was as brave as you and as talented as you. Please don't be jealous of me because I am a not well and either spend my life burning out or in a doctors office. Its nothing to be jealous of... believe me! You seem lovely and I hate that you are so hard on yourself that I just want to come and give you a big hug. You start taking care of yourself too missy and apologies for this ramble reply
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