Happy New Year

Happy New Year Sweeties!

11 miles to start 2011!

Its a cracking good start! My garmin arrived yesterday a few days late but its here and I ♥ it. Now I have to wait the footpod arriving. Gah! I used my nike band for my new years run today and my what a pleasant run. I met my good friend at the park in mild temperatures, clear air and no rain/snow/ice. I have decided that I will run outside more in order to get out the confines of the gym. That goal brings me to talk about my new year resolutions...

Eleven goals for 2011

1. Outdoor Activity- Cycling and running outdoors a lot more rather than slogging it out in the gym letting hours of my day dwindle away because I'm compelled to do that one more miles on the elliptical or an extra 20 minutes on the rower. No more! Its tiresome and boring.

2. Sign up for races and have something to train towards. Starting with Arthers seat next week, duathlon in March and all going well I would love to do a marathon this year. 

3. Stretch stretch and more stretching

4. Make time for things other than a grueling exercise regime.

5. Bake and make new recepies

6. Throw myself into my work and study

7. Stop caring about what people thing/ do/ say as at the end of the day... what does it matter?!

8. Don't let numbers, weight and calories dictate my life! This is a hard one as I feel its something that will always be with me but I don't want it to rule and control me like it has been doing. I need to shift the focus a little and step outside the box even if its one foot. Its gotta be better than being stuck inside the box.

9. Visit new places and travel outside Glasgow. This could be a adventure to Loch Lomond, a trip to London to meet up with Laura or a City break in Europe (finance depending)

10. Write more wether it be on here, journalling or finally finishing my book (something that I started i.e one chapter and have yet to finish!)

11. Moan less! I feel I whinge way too much and I need to start being a little more positive as nobody likes hanaging out with Miss Negativity


Do you have new years resolutions? What are your hopes for 2011?

Love

Getaway

Last weekend I escaped Glasgow and took a trip to Inveraray. It was a little rainy but I had a lovely little day out and discovered a cute cafe called brambles that served good coffee. 

The week that followed has been horrible and I swayed about posting about this but I think I need to for myself also to show others that including an eating disorder in your life is not worth the pain or hassle. I think anorexia had me under the illusion I was doing miles better... I was doing a little better but not as much as I should be. I relapsed for two days and my body decided to give in and sent me packing to hospital again :( 

My haemoglobin dropped to dangerously low because of malnutrition and I was prodded with needles and experienced lot of discomfort not to mention a dreadful nights sleep. It was basically a hellish horrible experience that I want to avoid at all costs. This means challenging my negative thoughts and overcoming them long before I wind up in a situation like that again. Continuing the way I have been is just going to lead to life time of scenarios like the above or worse. Its no way of life and I need to push on forward to pull myself out of this. I am just grateful I had two of my wonderful friends there to support me and words cannot describe how thankful I am to have such amazing people in my life.

Its been a while since I have blogged so I will include a mixed mash of photographs of the past few weeks...

Vanilla yogurt cereal mess

Cous Cous with veggies and salad

Amusing grape (random I know)

Mothers Autumn Garden

So its been a stressful few weeks and there can be no slips with my food intake or tacking on extra milage to runs because I cannot afford to become poorly and let this illness continue to dominate my life.  

I don't know if I am being too open about things but I feel this blog holds me accountable for enforcing changes which can only be a good thing right?!

Anyway I hope you are all wrapped up warm in cosy scarfs, hats & gloves as a cold spell has decided to pop by and say hello.

Love