Friday, 20 August 2010

Prime Minister

Well the question was 'Who do you think would make a good president?' but since I am stuck in the UK I'll stick with the above...

I genuinely have no idea! I think that whoever was running the country there would always be someone at a disadvantage, someone would always be dissatisfied and I imagine having it as job would be incredibly stressful. I can't really think of anyone in particular but if I had to choose then I would like to see a female prime minister (not thatcher) but I would like to see how a lady got along looking after us lot.

loving these!

In general things right now are not super... I am just fed up and want to escape Glasgow, people, me, life! Don't worry I'm not going to be silly now! I am just angry as I keep running round in circles and can't seem to break the cycle. Its ongoing and I do better in one area for example I start eating more but almost instantaneously my exercise steps up and the whole thing winds up being counter productive and sending me back to square one. I know its only me that can make the change but every time I feel like I turn a corner or rather put one foot in front of the other my mind starts going haywire. How do people just let go? As the years get on I become more entrenched in my disorder and start to wonder if it will ever leave me alone.

I have a few things lined up over the next few months so hopefully I can just take tiny steps and hope its leads to bigger changes. Right now I am exhausted and I feel a niggle in my ankle which may just be tiredness but I don't know how I'll cope if I wasn't able to run especially with the Great Scottish Run at the beginning of September. Rah rah rah.




  1. I'm sure things will turn around for you. It does take work to change the mindset that you're in...and even when you think things are better, there will forever be that voice in the back of your mind screaming at you. It will try to tell you just how wrong you are for everything you're trying to change, but you just have to try your hardest to over-power that part of yourself. It's a constant battle, and one that does feel like you'll never win. It's the little steps that lead to the bigger ones and you are at least trying - and that counts for something! All the hard work and all the struggles are worth it in the end. Good luck...sending all the positive vibes I can! :)

  2. I didn't realise you were doing the Insight challenge too! I've just read through all of your answers so far and it's been so lovely to hear your perspective on things. Thanks for mentioning me too :) I've been terribly at keeping up with blogs recently and huge apologies for not commenting sooner.

    Please, if you're wanting to run that 10K (I think it's a 10K, yes?) give your ankle a rest! I know it sounds hypocritical coming from me but I don't want you to jeopordize your place just like I have with the Great North Run.

    I adore Trek Bars too...I think the Berry one is probably my favourite.

    Definitely need to see a female world leader! Shame the closest thing we've got at the moment is Sarah Palin. Ugh.

    I'd like to know how people break free from destructive cylces too...for me it's the exercise/overeat/repeat trap. I just think I'm making progress but then I always slip back into the same loop eventually.

    Hope you're having a lovely Saturday



  3. Thank you so much for you encouragement Abbey :) you always have such lovely comments. Try not to get too disheartened about the job front as these things have a habit of working out. What's for you won't go by you apparently! I hope everything is okay with you and thank you again.

    Oh Jess! No need to apologise! I know that you are a strong person that will break the cycle and together we will come through things. Its just a matter of taking little baby steps I suppose. The compulsion to exercise is still rife and takes over the majority of my life but hopefully it won't aways be this way! I hope not anyway... I lack sleep :(

    I really want to do the half marathon but I've been advised to stick to the 10k which makes me feel a bit left out as everyone I know is doing the half. Boo.

    I hope you're enjoying the weekend m'love