This is my wonderful friend Julie! She recently performed at the Glasgow Mela Festival with Spinal Chord It was a lovely day for the event in Kelvingrove Park and Julie looked and did a fantastic job at twirling and spinning through the air. A true little butterfly!
In other news... my graduation was on Wednesday (photos to follow). This whole graduating thing has thrown me as its a case of what now? What do I do? Where am I going? What should I be doing? What do people think of me? That last one is probably the stickler for me as I am constantly worried about being judged and thinking what other people think when really why should it matter! I do have some ideas of what I'll be doing over the next year but right now I am just not in a place to think about way off into the future. I have been advised to focus on my health right now and that sounds simple! Putting plan into action feel like climbing a mountain... with eight bottles of diet pepsi in my bag. Hopefully things will become easier as I am not liking this sticky pudding I'm stuck in...
I have been over exerting myself as per usual running, swimming, going to too many classes and walking everywhere. I just feel compelled to be doing something all of the time and if I am sitting for more than a half hour I feel lazy. I know that these are not rational thoughts and because I am being consumed by my eating disorder its distorting everything and I need to try to fight these feelings as its sending me further into a place I don't want or need to be. I know how to turn things around and I talk about how I will but actually doing it is a whole other story. I need to give myself a firm kick up the bee hind! La. If it were that easy.
Its now time for midnight hi lights followed by some much needed Zzzz's